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My mind can easily become fixated on........


I once went an entire day feeling very claustrophobic when It suddenly dawned on me that I am always trapped. I can't stand the feeling of being held down or in tight spots. It makes me freak out. So one day while lying in bed It just hit me that........I'm trapped in my body. I can see outside of my body, but I am very much a prisoner in my own vessel. This is very stupid, and I know this, but for the rest of that day I had a small feeling of being claustrophobic.

I sometimes become very fascinated with people passing me on the streets. In my movie they are just extras, but in reality they each have their own memories, family's, beliefs, dreams, hopes, fears etc. I've caught myself just staring at a bystander and wondering what their childhood was like. If they believe in God. If they are going through a bad time at the moment or if they are a terrible person. For the most part I don't even accept these people has real people because they have no effect on my life and I know that it isn't right but their realities are a mystery to me. Though I do know that we are all very much a like.

The rudeness of people has always interested me. Watching everyday people get stuck in a long line in the supermarket or have their time taken up in anyway they don't care for causes so much rudeness that It confuses me. How a person acts when a waiter accidentally spills water on them or if a new employee at Winco keeps making mistakes really shows what kind of person they really are. I think we all at times feel disconnected from people we don't know, just like I do at times, but it seems many people only view others as sub human and then treat them as such when they feel their toes have been stepped on.

Why does it seem that most people would rather do a mindless activity instead of having a good conversation? Most important lessons I have learned have come from conversations with friends and family. All my important relationships that I have in life have been formed by long conversations. Games are fine, but honestly sitting around and talking until a topic catches on is one of the funnest things to do. Deep religious conversations are always interesting and political debates are just awesome.